What is the Year of Pink?

It all started with hiring a life coach. I never thought I would indulge myself in such a frivolous manner; it seemed financially irresponsible, and slightly embarrassing to boot. And I still haven’t brought up the price tag of this six-month program with my husband, lest he lecture me about “tightening our belts during economic uncertainties ahead.” Ah well- his money is his, and mine is mine.

And yet- AND YET, the project is just beginning, but working with this life coach has already kicked off the greatest year of self-improvement of my life, so I’ve taken to this blog to record it.

For what audience? Unclear- I have no idea at this point if I’m even going to hit publish. (Obviously if you’re reading this, I did, indeed, decide to hit publish.) Perhaps I’ll just keep polishing entries like tumbled gem stones, only to determine they’ve never become smooth enough for publication into the wider world. Instead, I’ll just keep it all for myself, like a dragon hoarding her treasure; these recollections of my journey.

I bet you’re wondering- what the hell is a pink project? And why is it called that? Well, it’s my personal voyage to discover my inner voice. What is she saying? What does she sound like? Can I ask her questions? How do I learn to separate her from my mind? I’ve always been so results-driven in my life; what would it be like to slow down and create a rich, inner tapestry? To really tap into myself- because currently I’m stumbling around on autopilot, not even aware of the millions of tiny decisions I make daily. They all seem to be mere habits just deeply ingrained within me; “eat this,” “wear this,” “say yes to this.”

The project is an experiment in which I spend six months attempting to make every single decision of every day by speaking to my inner voice, instead of using my rational mind (the status quo.) And what I’m going to ask her is- “Does this feel pink?” We will only progress if the answer is a resounding, “YES!” and we’re feeling grounded in our feminine power.

This all came about because my life coach was in her “marshmallow” era. (Basically- she did a similar experiment with HER life coach.) She would make all decisions (big or small) by asking her inner voice- “Does this feel marshmallow?” She had been decorating her new house and bought this gigantic, soft, white, luscious couch that reminded her of a marshmallow. It represented safety, family, home, comfort, and cozy vibes for her, and she wanted that feeling in all of her life and her decisions going forward. She wanted to be coming from a place of “marshmallow.”

Pink for me represents so many things that we’ll be getting into each of them during several different blog entries. But some of the obvious ones are- passion, romance, feminine energy, sexuality/sensuality, and girl power. The image that came into my mind that I specifically want to channel is; the way I feel when I wear my bubble gum (Barbie) pink flight attendant uniform. This is a special uniform that I’m only allowed to wear during the month of Oct (breast cancer awareness) so when I DO get to wear it, it’s a unique occasion, and it turns heads. I feel confident, powerful, and beautiful striding through the concourse like a neon pink beacon. I am a sexy siren, and I want to access this FIRE, and this feeling when I ask my inner voice- “Is this pink?’