The Pink Project 2.0

 Let me bring us back to the topic at hand- (I got a little off track in my last post with my "state-of-the-fine-arts-in-colleges address.") So here we are- currently trying to nail down exactly what my BBL project is. 

“It sounds like you’ve already finished your Pink Project, so now what?”

Welp, that was a shocking statement. But it HAD been an astonishing emotional clearing session with the fabulous Dana Evans. (What is emotional clearing? That sounds like a great topic for another blog entry!) I had channeled Ivy, and I mean, I HAD CHANNELED IVY. It was similar to Whoopi Goldberg channeling Demi Moore in that famous scene from Ghost. (That scene is kind-of gross if you think about it. Patrick Swayze was actually getting hot and heavy with Whoopi’s gnarly red manicured fingers that whole time.) Now that I’ve given away my age with a “Ghost” reference (any other Xennials in the house!?) Let me bring you back to my conversation with Ivy.

Living Your Lottery Life

I'm in this high-end coaching program called the Bigger & Better Life Mastermind. BBL for short, but NOT Brazilian Butt Lift, lol (even though I desperately need one after dropping forty pounds in record time.) It's ten amazing women, and we've all come up with projects to do over the course of the next six months to rocket our lottery lives forward into the stratosphere of greatness. (What if every day could feel like you've won the lottery?) Unsurprisingly, it's with my life coach, Dorothy, and culminates in a retreat in Pensacola.

The Rose Quartz Challenge

Whoops! I realize I’m somewhat missing the “pink” component of my pink project. While I’ve been doing a good job of conversing and advancing my relationship with Ivy, I’ve completely forgotten to ask her- “does this feel pink?”

According to “the googles,” the color pink represents- femininity, sensitivity, tenderness, sweetness, softness, romance, innocence, playfulness, healing, charm, and calming. All good stuff that I’d love to cultivate more of in my life. Rose quartz is a healing crystal- known as a stone of “unconditional love.” It’s healing properties include- promoting mutual understanding, inspiring compassion, healing relationship problems, and emitting vibrations of love and joy. I think I have one of those stones around here somewhere. I should find it, cleanse it (leave it out in the sunshine or moonshine,) and then carry it around for a week and see how that goes for me. Another fun experiment to try.

Human Design 101

What is Human Design? Simply put, it’s a fun tool for self-discovery and growth. (Which is what this entire journey is about, right?) To get research-y about it; it’s a system (that was developed in 1987, so why am I just hearing about it now!?) that combines elements of several different disciplines; including astrology, the I Ching, the Kabbalah, the Chakra system, and quantum physics. So if you want to get “woo” with me, and see if the concept of Human Design can help you navigate your life more effectively, click here and see what your human design type is!

I’m a 1/4 (the omniscient teacher) Manifesting Generator. I have a sacral authority (which we’ve discussed a million times already, because that means I make decisions from the gut (from Ivy) rather than emotionally, or by waiting, or by talking it through with other people. (Now I’m just going to throw a bunch of terminology at you.)

Hi, My Name is "Ivy."

After my weeklong experiment of asking Ivy to provide guidance in making one decision per day, I came to the conclusion that I don’t actually need to ask Ivy anything, because she's already there. She’s been present in my gut all along- guiding my snap decisions as I use my sacral authority. And if I do encounter mind drama; (which I did on the last day of the exercise,) the best resolution is to have a conversation with her- (which went a little something like this:)

Me: “Ivy- (that’s what she told me to call her, now that we’re on a first name basis.) I’m struggling to decide if I should use my FMLA and call in for this trip I’ve been assigned. Max won’t be able to take Lyra to her therapy appointment on Tuesday.”

Start with One Simple Thing...

My first assignment was to spend a week making at least one decision per day by using my inner voice (iv.) The first day didn’t go well- as in- I arrived at the end of the day feeling as if there just hadn’t been any decisions for me TO make… But that couldn’t possibly be true, could it? Weren’t we faced with millions of choices as human beings every single day?

So I conferred with my life coach and she told me to ask my iv to pick out which mug I was going to drink my coffee out of the following morning. (Well, the joke’s on her, because I don’t drink caffeine!) But her point stands, that my day is made up of hundreds of micro-decisions that I’m not even paying attention to. I have a tendency to make snap, gut decisions (they happen so quickly I don’t even realize I’m making them.) This is actually pretty on brand for me because sacral is my authority in my human design chart. (No idea what that last sentence meant? Don’t worry- I’ll do a blog post on human design in a hot minute.)

What is the Year of Pink?

It all started with hiring a life coach. I never thought I would indulge myself in such a frivolous manner; it seemed financially irresponsible, and slightly embarrassing to boot. And I still haven’t brought up the price tag of this six-month program with my husband, lest he lecture me about “tightening our belts during economic uncertainties ahead.” Ah well- his money is his, and mine is mine.

And yet- AND YET, the project is just beginning, but working with this life coach has already kicked off the greatest year of self-improvement of my life, so I’ve taken to this blog to record it.

For what audience? Unclear- I have no idea at this point if I’m even going to hit publish. (Obviously if you’re reading this, I did, indeed, decide to hit publish.) Perhaps I’ll just keep polishing entries like tumbled gem stones, only to determine they’ve never become smooth enough for publication into the wider world. Instead, I’ll just keep it all for myself, like a dragon hoarding her treasure; these recollections of my journey.